Progress!

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Today is better than yesterday which was better than the day before that!

Confused yet?

For more than a month I don’t think I have had 2 consecutive days of progress, until now!

Sunday did not include more than about 3 hours at a time without a nap. But yesterday was much better than that. I was able to study for and take an exam as well as clean my room! A day like that comes about once a week right now.

Can I describe how happy I am that I feel even better today than I did yesterday? Praise God because the Doxycycline must be working!

Now I still have all the aches and pains and weird symptoms that come with Lyme, but today I have energy and a desire to actually do something besides become better acquainted with my pillow.

There’s a really good chance that tomorrow will involve heavy fatigue and listlessness. That’s how Lyme is. No, my doctor doesn’t know how long it should take or even how much better I will be at the end of all of this. I could be running around at the end of this week or I could be still laid up in bed in 6 months! But really, who in this world actually knows what’s coming tomorrow? This sometimes seems like a huge exercise in trusting God for my ‘daily bread’ as the Lord’s prayer says. I can only ask God for today’s and not tomorrow’s or yesterday’s.

One of my favorite passages is Psalm 118:13-14.
“I was pushed back and about to fall, but the Lord helped me. The Lord is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.”

I’m not going to lie and say that it is not gut-wrenchingly hard to go through each day like this. But God’s love is overwhelming, surprising, and above all sufficient to get me through each and every difficult day.

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About Rachael Ann

I am a still a teenager but have the body of an elderly person. I have been battling chronic health problems for almost 4 years straight now. I kept saying I wasn't insane and making things up. I was right and it turns out that I have Lyme Disease! This is my way of keeping focused on the positives when the days are long and hard. I don't have all the answers but I keep hope.
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